Look deep into my eyes, behind the pupil you will see the broken person there with the tears in her eyes, holding her heart with both hands struggling to not let it fall. 

She lets the people hit her with there unkind words she doesnt raise her hand to protect herself just incase her heart falls.

She cant be without the people and she finds it hard to be there too.

She loves them, she needs them she gets to the point where she agrees yes its her fault, her fault she doesnt want to do what you want her to its her fault why she crys.

"Why do you play the victim" "why do you make me hurt you" " why do you push me to shout at you" the girl falls down broken, Im sorry why I make you so mad it is my fault why you shout I wont refuse again.

How I feel inside.

Im sat here in a confrence listening to all my friends talk, I dont feel apart of it anymore, I dont feel i want to be here anymore.

I found out a this week one of my friends hung himself, my heart sank. Im here in the states and cant do nothing about it. Theres more to it everyday I listen to my thoughts, the thoughts I cannot express cos Im always wrong. Life sucks when noone cares about your thoughts. My hubby just messaged me I sent something naughty he said send pics or fuck off, does this person really love me or am I just a peice of meat to play with and drop whenever he wants?

Is this where Im supposed to be in life??? Am I supposed to feel this way day in day out?? Would you miss me if I left? Would you cry if I took my own life like my mind keeps telling me to do everyday to make everyone happy?

I sit and wonder what if everyday. Some people may think this is just a girl trying to cause drama but Im not Im crying out and hoping someone hears me hoping someone catches me before I fall :-(

PEACE!!

Attention whores in second life

 [22:14] Mystic****** Bitchface: Damnnnnnn U have a Hawt voice no wonder your quiet.

Said this to my husband while I was stood there,

Do you not read profiles Bitch, funny thing is, is the ho is partnered LMFAO

Me thinks its time someone messaged her partner LOL

Gets right to it.........

About me

Right where to start LOL.
Well my sissy started a blog so I decided to start my own, please be warned now I will not hold back on here so if you dont like it dont read it.
Everyone needs somewhere to express how they feel and this is my somewhere.
I may be a avatar but behind this avi is a person with feelings.  I am 551 days old and seen and learnt alot in secondlife. I started my sl life in a vampire clan named sleepless knights things went sour a little of my own doing but while all this was happening I met the most amazing man in the world 0day Hax. We dated in SL for about 4 months and then we both decided to meet so i packed up my lil suitcase and toddled over to california. We clicked fell in love deeper and deeper. He then proposed to me and we got married RL on the 12th april 2010. Quick I know but to be honest why waste time we arent getting any younger LOL.
0day is my world and I wouldnt trade him for anything.
PEACE!